Add it to the list of things i like because of Zumba connections

Can't Stop the Feeling

I may be losing my mind (re: TSwizzle)

It's a Taylor Swift song, and I actually like it.  Not just tolerate-it-because-it's-catchy-and-it-gets-stuck-in-my-head-for-hours-at-a-time, but actually like it.

I'm afraid for my sanity.  Seriously.

New Gavin!!!

Enough said.

Pretty

I know.  I have a weakness for men who sing and play guitar.  And dance.  And this one also has an accent.  

It's a sickness.

Doesn't mean the song isn't amazing.

Nick at night

... with Nick & Knight.  (I know, it's not really clever, but I'm tired.)

The jist of that statement is that Nick Carter and Jordan Knight are touring together, and I saw them last night.  It was exceptionally fun.  They both seemed to be enjoying themselves, and the crowd was actually really good, despite it's general admission-ness.  Ran into an old friend, which was nice, and went with my oldest friend so all in all it was a super night.

Super fun and awesomeness

Meghan Trainor.

Excited to hear what the rest of her album will sound like.  Because based on this - really looking forward to it.

How can a girl not love...

Lily Allen.  Seriously!??!

And since I'm on the topic ...

My favourite song of 2013 was:

Totally loving this song right now.

I am such a sap.

Back to blog part 3 - Backstreet's Back, Alright!

Nick & AJ at sound check

And to round out the vacation, the Boys came to Toronto with the "In a World Like This" tour (August 7, Molson Amphitheatre).  My friend  decided to do the soundcheck, and I caved as well, mainly because I'd never been to soundcheck with Kevin as a part of the group.  It was a long and disorganized wait for soundcheck but it was awesome to see all five of them back together again.

Five Boys together again

Our seats for the show were far from the best we'd ever had, but hope for a second leg of the tour makes it all better.  (Plus a really good camera.)

Kevin

I had wondered how they'd deal with the songs Kevin hadn't been a part of.  Unfortunately, the answer to that was to not do any of those songs.  I missed a few of them, but it was really kind of a celebration of their longevity as a group.  They're 20th Anniversary.  I can get over the loss of a few songs.

Set List:

The Call

Don't Want you Back

Incomplete

Permanent Stain

All I Have to Give

As Long as You Love Me

Show 'Em (What You're Made of)

Show Me The Meaning of Being Lonely

Breathe

I'll Never Break Your Heart

We've Got it Goin' On

Safest Place to Hide

10,000 Promises (Accoustic)

Madeleine (Accoustic)

Quit Playing Games with My Heart (Accoustic)

The One

Love Somebody

More Than That

In A World Like This

I Want it That Way

Encore:

Everybody (Backstreet's Back)

Larger than Life

It was really nice to see the chemistry and interaction of all five is still the same, even through separation and so many other things have happened in all of their lives.

Post script: I have, since the concert, read Nick Carter's book "Facing the Music, and Living to Talk About it".  The book was interesting from a fan perspective because it shed light on some some timing of events, and relationships in the group.   Seeing all five of the members together at the concert, and having a better perspective of what they've been through together, makes it mean that much more.  If I were to never see them perform together again, I could be okay with that.  It would be really disappointing, but this concert could be a good closer.

Jesse McCartney

Post Post Script: Jesse McCartney was the Opening Act.  He's fun.  And I probably wouldn't have appreciated his set had he opened for the Boys any sooner than now.

say what you need to say...

My Confession

"... that smile you're wearing

It's a beautiful disguise

It's just something you put on to hide the emptiness inside

And you seem so lonely"

I realized tonight, sometime between listening to music that I love by an artist that I ... well, I won't say love, but something resembling some version of it, and driving home, that I am not as okay with the way my life is, as I may seem to be - To anyone who knows me, and not even to myself. And the worst part is that I don't know why, or how to fix it. There's not so much anything really wrong, it's just that ... well, something's just not right. And I've been rationalizing and reasoning and explaining why it's fine for so long that I almost had myself convinced. Until I hear random song lyrics that have never made me cry before, but somehow now have some strange poignancy, even if the context of the song isn't exactly right.

"Trying to outrun all the memories

But I keep falling down

I keep falling down

And it's like you still got a hold on me

'Cause I keep falling down

I keep falling down"

Maybe it's just a random feeling that something needs to change, if I could figure out how to change it, and some part of me will long for the old, while another part wants to stop looking back and start looking toward something new. Maybe I'm just in a sad place, where anything that seems remotely melancholy is going to hit a chord.

"I confess, everytime I come around

Something's always got you down

And I don't understand why

And if you wanna tell me

I'll be the angel on your shoulder, baby

I'll be the man that you confide in"

Maybe it's just that everyone seems to have that person who they can confide in, share things with, and I don't. Maybe, it's just because I'm thinking about my friends upcoming wedding, and how two of my other friends have gotten married in the past two years, and that some part of me is envious. And maybe it's not a blanket issue that envelopes my whole life; maybe it's just something that will pass, and is only something because I was faced with it today, and seemingly constantly, recently.

"I'm just trying to figure out what's wrong with your head

Everytime I look around you're somewhere else instead

I wanna ask you why but everytime I try, you cry"

Maybe this whole thing is just a fleeting moment of non-clarity, of having too much time for my mind to wander, of too much emotion for random reasons. Maybe it doesn't mean anything at all. Maybe it's just me watching something unreachable, and wanting it for myself.

"From the first hit

I saw my world come crashing down

I’ll never forget

How you just blew my mind

My head is spinning

Feel my heart ’bout to explode

I’m overload from the head to toe

Around and round and round we go"

Lyrics from "Heart Without a Home", "Falling Down", My Confession" and "Addicted" - performed by Nick Carter

Nothing to say...

But here, watch this:

Obsessed!

I'm obsessed with a song.  This, in itself is not shocking.  I regularly become obsessed with the new Backstreet Boys, or Nick Carter, or Gavin Degraw.

This time, however, I am obsessed with Maroon 5.  Moves Like Jagger.  Awesome.  I listen to it repeatedly.

LOVE IT!   Seriously hoping for some more new Maroon 5 soon.