Saturday, December 31, 2016

End of another year

Another year is coming to a close.  And I once again, have not kept up with the blogging.  Did I post even once this year?  Other than posting random musical content that is.  I doubt it.  I'm not even go to check.  Instead I'm going to focus on a minimal update and what I hope to accomplish in the new year. 

What to say about this year.  It's been incredibly depressing in the loss of celebrity life.  Just in the last two weeks, we've lost George Michael, Carrie Fisher and Debbie Reynolds.  Then add to that Prince, David Bowie, Alan Rickman, Alan Thicke.  So many that I can't even list them all.  Something like 110 celebrity or entertainment related deaths this year.  It's crazy.  So, for that reason it's good that 2016 is coming to a close.  And hopefully 2017 won't follow the same path. 

Personally, on the topic of loss, my Shea passed away in October, and it's been harder to deal with than I expected.  I've lost other pets previously, but this was just different somehow.  I guess probably because I've never lived outside of my parents home without her.  And now I have to.  The goal is to get another kitty-baby, but we need to do some renovations on my place before that can happen, so I'm waiting. 

I've settled in at my new job, though as an organization we've been going through some pretty major transition which is due to change again starting Tuesday.  I've been working part time again for the Christmas season, and with the part-time job and the full-time job and the going to the gym I'm pretty close to burning out, so while I enjoy the part-time position, I'm glad that it will be coming to an end.  I need proper rest, and to stop stressing myself out. 

Otherwise life has been just life.  There are parental health concerns, and general other issues, but I can't control any of that, so I need to just go with the flow, and let it go.

Which basically leads to  figuring out my goals for the upcoming year. 
1) Stop living in my head - stop overthinking and over analyzing everything.  Just let life happen as it does, and enjoy the moments, but don't obsess over them.
2) Eat better, take better care of myself.
3) Read more consistently.  - I found this year that I was trying to cram in the books that I needed to finish my (decreased) goal.  I need to plan better so that I don't get that far behind again this year.
4) Write more.  Blogging or storytelling.  It doesn't matter.  Just do it.  More often.  More consistently.
5) Be more organized.  Tidy up after myself.  Purge things that I don't need anymore.  Stop being a hoarder.
6) Be more financially responsible.

All of these things are actually related to making myself feel better.  I spend money on things I don't need and eat things that I shouldn't eat when I'm stressed and then I don't feel like doing anything productive because I'm thinking of myself as such a slacker, so what's the point? It's really a big endless cycle.  Concentrate on all those things individuallly and they should all work themselves out. And it should work out to me being less moody, and more positive. 

I'm down with giving it a try anyway. That's the goal for this year.  End on a happier, healthier, more productive note.  Not too tall an order, is it?

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

A million different things

I have a million things going through my head right niw.  A million questuons, excuses, reasons.  A million different ways to explain why things are the way they are.  I feel crapoy, like an idiot and stressed out all at the same time and none of it is something that I can talk about.  Not really anyway.  It's either not my story to tell or it's  stuff that makes me seem petty or I don't know... just makes me seem so self involved.  I just don't know what I'm thinking right now or how I'm supposed to be reacting or handling things. 

I should learn to appreciate life for what it is, to express appreciation for the good things and to take the bad less personally, to internalize less.  To let things go.   To breathe and actually live. 

I don't know.  It's a lesson I need to take to heart, but it's been a lesson long in learning and I still don't know if it's sticking.   I need to take things in perspective.  To take them step by step, to laugh, to live and to  keep learning.  Life does not get better because you wish it would.  It gets better because you work at it, and appreciate the good in it.  Always appreciate the good.  It will outweigh the bad if you acknowledge that it's there.

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Another year past...

It's been far too long since I last posted.  And I actually have things to tell, but since it's twenty minutes to the new year, I'll keep it short.  I've made some changes in my life and had some changes happen.

Thankfully nothing bad for me specifically, and nothing that's exceptionally noteworthy for anyone except those very close to me, but things that have hugely affected my outlook on life, making the final 40 or so pages of my 2015 book and different story than I started at the beginning.

Hopefully I can take those changes and run with them in 2016 and write a more exciting story than I've had in the past few years.  But to begin, let's recap the things that helped leave 2015 on a good note.

Saturday, August 29, 2015


How can a group of people expect society to "not see people based on their colour", but then complain about other groups who are "colour-blind" when speaking about issues.

Being a blonde, blue-eyed caucasian, I am clearly not part of a visible minority group (except for being female), but I just don't understand the hypocrisy.

When a report comes out about virtually anything, the first thing minority groups comment is that the report is colour-blind - as in it doesn't take into account issues specific to particular minority groups.

But as a whole, society is expected to see everyone as equal, without making note of any colour differences.  How does one discuss issues specific to a minority group that you're not supposed to be making note of?  It doesn't make sense.

People are people.  We should be aiming for a society where there are no issues for specific races/colours/cultures, but only issues to specific people, or to society as a whole.  Stop taking backward steps.

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Tiny Kittens Puffy kittens hilarious

This is a great video to watch if you ever just need a random laugh.  And then you'll feel bad for all the kitties.  Assuming that you're even remotely an animal person.  They're adorable.