I have a million things going through my head right niw. A million questuons, excuses, reasons. A million different ways to explain why things are the way they are. I feel crapoy, like an idiot and stressed out all at the same time and none of it is something that I can talk about. Not really anyway. It's either not my story to tell or it's stuff that makes me seem petty or I don't know... just makes me seem so self involved. I just don't know what I'm thinking right now or how I'm supposed to be reacting or handling things.
I should learn to appreciate life for what it is, to express appreciation for the good things and to take the bad less personally, to internalize less. To let things go. To breathe and actually live.
I don't know. It's a lesson I need to take to heart, but it's been a lesson long in learning and I still don't know if it's sticking. I need to take things in perspective. To take them step by step, to laugh, to live and to keep learning. Life does not get better because you wish it would. It gets better because you work at it, and appreciate the good in it. Always appreciate the good. It will outweigh the bad if you acknowledge that it's there.