Having a bit of a down week.
Last week was the last official day for my third office-mate in the eight years I've worked at the Complex. Add that to the number of co-op students who've come and gone, and the fact that I've been trying to get out of that place for at least 3 years, and it's a little depressing. I should just be grateful for the job that I have, but somehow that's just not getting through to my heart right now.
It probably doesn't help that I'm friends with all 3 former co-workers and am watching them do great things in their lives, at least new and interesting things, and here I sit, in practically the same place as when I started. (Not exactly the same place, since I was living with my parents when I got the job, and I've since bought a condo, but the premise is the same.) Nothing much has changed.
And I think I'm likely sabotaging my weight loss effort because of the bit of depression I'm feeling, which just adds to the depression. It makes me feel like a failure. I feel kind of like crying. Maybe I should make myself watch a sad, sad movie to get the tears out and maybe I'll feel better. Normally, I'd say I'll plan that for the weekend, but this weekend I actually have plans, so surprisingly, I won't be able to sit around and do nothing. WOO! (That's the good version, not the sarcastic one... in case you were wondering.)
Anyway, I just wanted to use this space for a little venting, and now I'm done.